full circle

To finish that post off that I said earlier. Yes this new era thing, but I hope that it can come back to Goleta, that's my goal, or our goal as I was saying, I kind of see it if we work hard enough it can come back full circle to what it was, but a new improved version.

Oh and my sister posted her quote:

Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
-Frank Outlaw

A new era

It really is, don't try to deny it. Nah, I'll keep it up as long as I can. But who am I to be bummed? I accomplished a lot and enjoyed much in this last era and I am very satifisfied.

What is this era? Well a long term friend of Ryan's and fan of Staring Back just recently e-mailed him and besides everything else he commented on about happening this year, he commented on how he was getting married along with everyone else he knows, it seems to be thing, everyone's "settling down." I turn around and look at us and it's the exact same thing, in the past year I've been to five weddings, the last one I went to before all this was 2001. So it's like whoa us too. BUT don't get to caught up on that settling down thing. I mean come on, since when does monogamy mean your settling. I think it's better, personally, and by no means settling, I mean the way I see it, it's just a new step and ramping up for more. It's like your combining powers and BAP! Look what we can do! Which I find to be quite the case, everything that Ryan and I have done together I am very proud of. Our lives as a whole are the way they are because we've worked really hard at it together.

Anyways back to this era thing, it's more then just the marital status changing, it's people moving either across the Pacific, or to counties south of Santa Barbara, and people starting new jobs, and all that stuff.

But one of the most important things to summaraize it all is we are in this new era where you are becoming your thoughts, I'm going to have to get the quote from my sister....I think this is it?

"Thoughts lead on to purposes; purposes go forth in action; actions form habits; habits decide character; and character fixes our destiny." -Tyron Edwards

and that's why this new era as sad as it is, brings such enthusiasm to me. Becuase we're one step deeper into this path.

A little bit of catch up

Of course when a little bit of catch up comes to late, there's not much catch up at all.

So. Moving somewhere else. Different, very different. I thought in someways I would be prepared because I have been away from home for long periods of time. But it's really weird to feel at home, get in the car, drive down the street and be in the middle of Hollywood. I feel like I went through a teleport or something. It's like wait, is this the same Hollywood? Did it get closer to home? Why is it right here? Why are all these things that have only been a recreational journey now at my finger tips? Of course the cool thing about that perspective is that it feels like just that. For me, our place has been so awesome, my job has been so awesome and things have been so surreal that it feels like I'm on a really long weekend trip to LA. Which is cool, I'm down to live my life in this mode, that is looking forward to it ninety-eight percent of the time mode...

Of course a lot of this I have to contribute to my job, and I think it's my final curve around the bend of coming home to architecture. See I've gone back and forth on architecture for years, dreaming about it, staring at it, thinking about it, and then I'll go try it in the real world and time and time again get discouraged and pushed away. But the thing is, I can never stop thinking about buildings and spaces, I'm obsessed with them. It makes me giddy. Looking at buildings is like more fun than eating chocolate. So I always come right back around. And this time it's different. This time I've learned enough that my dreams have gone in different new avenues, and reality has finally climbed high enough that I am beginning to actually equate reality with my dreams. And it's so awesome. I love it. I love architecture, and I'm so glad that after twenty-six years I'm ready for it more than ever.

Back to Hollywood. I have to admit though that now that it's been about 23 days I do know that I want to eventually go back to Goleta, I mean that was our plan. Well it still is our plan, it never stopped, I just have been given a little more affirmation. I definitely want to live in LA now and enjoy what it has to offer, and probably live somewhere else along the way, but always end up back in Goleta. One of our biggest goals in life is to buy a sweet cozy home in Goleta, and no matter what happens with the real estate market, I'm never giving up.

Yeah Music!

(listening to Saosin "Voices" and working from home at 11:50PM at night!!)

I do not want to go to your "Special Event"

I don't mean to start this blog, that covers the breadth of Ryan coming home, us moving down here and all these crazy happening with a slightly negative title. But definitely the most prominent thing that occupies my mind that I was not anticipating is the traffic. And not your regular really bad LA traffic. We're talking red carpet special event really really really bad traffic. Where if you don't do something illegeal, you might as well turn off your car, because you're not going anywhere. But actually right now, I'm off to go do more battling. And even though I'm not a good driver, I'm definitely going to master the Art of driving in this madhouse.